THE young archaeologist
comes from ultima Norfolk to take my photograph. I put on my best
jersey, make coffee, and he shoots me from every direction. The
morning is amazing. First, golden clouds, then, May sunshine. An
immense tree-touching plane trundles over, but with little noise.
The talk runs in various directions, as I don't quite know what I
am supposed to do. But there is an element of delight. It includes
a confession - dyslexia. What he puts down is never right first
time.
I tell him that I am an
involuntary archaeologist, because one can barely put a spade into
the Bottengoms garden without digging something up. Handmade nails,
fragments of what was once whole, iron shoes shed by the steeds of
the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse. The archaeologist says what we
all say: how moving it is to have in the palm of one's hand this
small handmade object.
I remember being on Bodmin
Moor with a poet friend, and our sitting by a stone-age hearth, and
thinking how it warmed the rough hands of long ago.
And now, this strangely hot
January morning. Too good to work. So I may as well dream. It has
been a disorganised week because of workmen, but now their surfaces
glow, the ancient interior has gone Dutch, and I am able to carry
shocked spiders from unwelcome spotlessness to the cosy murk of a
garden wall.
It is Candlemas, the feast
of lights, which was once called "The Meeting" - i.e. of Christ and
Simeon, of the child and the old man. Nunc
dimittis, he sang. Lumen ad revelationem, we
sing. In the village bus, a grandfather held a baby to give his
daughter a rest. They sat very still and at ease, locked in by a
pushchair. Reflections from the flooded Stour passed across their
faces.
Early catkins in the track,
very high up. Hellebores below. The archaeologist drives away, with
warnings not to run into Jamie, the postman, who might be coming
down at a fair lick. There is a kind of exultancy in descending an
old road. Our village is full of spidery lanes that end up at a
single dwelling.
But the day is
disconcerting. It is forbidding me to be inside. By now, the huge
trees, oaks and aspens, are serene below and in a passion above,
thrashing the sky, sending down dead wood, roaring at the top of
their voices, and at odds with everything that surrounds them. The
gale is sorting them out, throwing their birds off course and
confusing the turn of the month. When I was young, the miller would
say: "Did you listen to the tempest last night?" Who says "tempest"
now? Fine words fall in and out.
Keith arrives to give me the time of day, and to admire the
transformation he has wrought in the old room. We have coffee and
chocolates, and I write a sticker for the child's chair I have
given to his little grandson, Isaac. How pleasant it is to be too
interrupted to toil. Just to hear the commotion of trees, the
disturbance of water, the words of an old man ages ago, Nunc
dimittis. Just to listen to arrivals and departures from
Liverpool Street, to read Malachi. Bulbs tip the surface, no more.
A dead rose must come out, and a live one must not quite go where
it has been.